Lindsay’s big interview… shame!!!!!!!!
February 24, 2010 in Uncategorized
On her worst times:
“When my father was going public, that’s when I hit rock bottom. I abused substances too much and it wasn’t the answer to my problems.
On her coping mechanisms:
“I tried to mask my problems with alcohol, cocaine, and mind-altering substances. Now I’m in a place where I don’t need to use anything and I feel emotions because I choose to.
On learning lessons:
“I never want to be close to losing everything I worked for and aspired to have my whole life. I’ve made some dreadful mistakes but learned from them – that has probably saved my life.”
On drugs:
“I was only aware of cocaine because of my dad. I was terrified of it. But I tried it because I was stubborn, stupid and wanted to see what it was like. It’s not something I ever want to do again. It made me feel like s**t. It became uninteresting to me. I’m hyper anyway and I have that kind of personality, so I don’t need something like that.”
On the reason for rehab:
“The first time I checked myself in because I had taken Ambien. It’s a sleeping aid but it makes you hallucinate.I’d run a bath and fallen asleep on the floor and it overflowed. When I woke up, I was so scared I called my therapist and said, ‘Can I just go somewhere for a month? I’m around bad people and I need to take care of myself.’ I was terrified, so I put my name in.”
On her toxic lesbian relationship
with SaMANtha Ronson:
“I never really thought about women before, it kind of just happened with Samantha. It surprised me. We’re still in touch. We live in the same apartment building in LA and see each other often. She has always been one of my best friends. If I wasn’t with Samantha, I would probably be with a boy next. She’s the only woman I’ve been attracted to. We love each other. We might reconcile the relationship, maybe. I don’t know.“
“Mostly it was great. Everyone has ups and downs, it’s normal. But in front of the public eye they’re going to take the downs and make it seem like they’re a million times worse. That comes with the territory. It was a big deal for me because I’ve never had a relationship as public as that, especially being with a girl for the first time. That was really scary for me. But I didn’t care because I love her. A picture can tell a thousand different words and lies. They want the negative, they want the drama. They want to say, ‘Oh Lindsay’s distraught, here we go again, should Sam leave?’”
On why the Ronson family wants her gone:
“There have been a lot of ups and downs. Her family is very involved in her relationships and that was difficult. I think Samantha was growing as a celebrity and a musician and I think that might have scared her family. But I’ve always been her biggest supporter and, yeah, I love her. All the fighting stuff was just because all her friends had got involved and made me an outcast, which wasn’t fair to Samantha. I think it was a jealousy thing in terms of her becoming more famous than the rest of them. She kind of does what she wants now. It’s changed, so who’s to say we won’t be together again?“On Heath Ledger:
“That’s kind of a touchy subject. Sorry. He was a really good friend to me for a long time and it was really sad when that happened.”On her parents and her EFFED UP childhood:
“My childhood was very… well, my mom was amazing but my dad was there and then not there. My Dad experimented with drugs including cocaine and I think maybe that had a lot to do with it. When I was younger he would disappear for three days then show up and we’d be walking on eggshells because we would be nervous of what he would say or do. I would put myself in between him and my siblings and do the best I could to protect them. Maybe I didn’t realize how much it was affecting me as a person and what it could do to me in the long run. He never hit me, it was more verbal. When I was younger he hit my mom, but I don’t really remember that part of it. I think my family is part of the reason I’ve made mistakes. I think it’s just the pressure of wanting to please everyone. That’s always been hard.”
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