My life and world

Last night we had a huge storm and the tree Emile used as his launching pad to heaven was torn right through the middle by the strong winds. I feel very conflicting emotions about this. On the one hand I want it gone and out of my sight and on the other hand I feel sad it is going to be gone. The one part where I used to place flowers and photos of him as well as poems and messages is lying on the ground. The tree’s bottom trunk is hollow and it seems the rest of it is going to fall down as well. The same year Emile went to the other side I tried to burn that tree down because I hated it so much. When I was standing there today looking at the torn half lying on the ground I wondered if this is not some kind of sign for me. I was having gooseflesh all over and a lump in my throat. Could it be that the Universe is telling me to let go now? I don’t know what to feel right now. What do you think this means? I am on the precipice of a new life for myself and in a way that tree was still a connection to Emile. Oh dear me, I am in two minds about this.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

Blessed Be